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    March 29

    My Heart

    Twas my nightmare upon this night.
    I was terrified. Full of fright.
    I remember dreaming.
    Dreaming of bleeding
    Dreaming of someone screaming.
    I remember the hate
    Of someone who was unhappy with fate.
    My loss of words was all I could feel
    The silence of the dark my heart did steal.
    And I became as silent as the wind
    Gazing upon my sin
    I found this and grinned.
    This that I had longed for.
    That which was believed nevermore.
    That which no one could call by name.
    That which has no higher fame.
    I stared with amazement and delight.
    The thing I held without any fright
    Just happened to be my very heart
    beating not broken or apart
    But full, my heart.
    And so it was true that I could still care
    But now the question did I still dare?
    March 14

    Don't Let The Memory Die Young (In Memory of Stephanie Wilson)

    One tear drop
    For one who's drifted far away.
    Love songs have never bared the burden
    And your heart bleeds on and on.
     
    Can't you see your children dying
    While you sit there judging me?
    Oh please don't let the memory
    Die so young.
     
    God we're so scared
    Without you by our side.
    Please send an angel for a guide
    Through this darkest night.
     
    This death has brought a meaning to my life
    But there's no one to share it with.
    Can't someone hear me
    Crying tears for a long lost soul?
     
    Death lingers over
    I can feel its breath so ice cold.
    Oh heaven please exept this gift
    We have all been dying to give.
    March 07

    Final Child

    Hush...
    Hush now little baby
    Mommy never heard your cries.
    You're wasting every moan
    She's muffled every sound.

    So go to sleep now little baby
    Evil will watch over you.
    I'll hold you like she never could
    And I'll never leave you like she would...
    You are my final child.

    I'll whisper in your ear
    and tell you everything's alright
    I'll wrong your every right
    And blacken your every light.

    I'll smother all your virtues.
    I'll steal away your truth.
    Tonight evil has you.
    You are my final child.

    March 05

    Never Again

    Its raining blood again
    I've poured over sins again.
    Persecuted,
    Fire and the brimstone
    I will will never again
    Be alone.
    This earth
    Has turned its back on me.
    My heart,
    Tastes of dust.
    Bleeding
    I hear the screaming.
    The shadow of death
    Has left its mark.
    The race of man
    Shall vanish in the dark
    And all shall burn
    But I
    Never again...
    January 05

    In Flames

    They gotta believe you crawl in flames
    Sometimes i'm waiting for fame alone
    Never stop dreaming all is lost
    Now i feel human all alone
     
    Holding friends on the line
    Start strong but crash in flames
     
    I'll scream in a rainy day song
    Wake up fast holding me like dancing
    Trying once, gotta say anything
    Sometimes friends watch me explode in flames
     
    Believe in the road ahead
    Its the road in flames
    December 19

    Blood Rain

    Medicate my need.
    Slit my throat,
    And watch me bleed.
     
    Nothing simple in my taste.
    How is it
    You see right through my face?
     
    Beware,
    My soul rising
    In the air.
     
    Your grin,
    Like a knife
    Against my skin
     
    Could it rain blood?
    If it could
    Than should it flood?
     
    When you die can I laugh?
    Cause now your dealing
    With satans wrath.
    December 06

    Death Trip

    Feeling
    Me breathing.
    World spinning round
    I'm bound....
    To the sound
    Of your voice.
     
    Now I can see
    The poison in me.
    I have found
    My gleaming ground.
    This bleeding sea
    Is screaming....
    In me.
     
    Life's getting older
    While death's getting colder.
    Wishing I could cry
    On a shoulder.
    Failing my mind
    Black coming...
    Behind
    A dark grip
    Here on my newest
    Death Trip.
    November 26

    Forget

    All I wanted was to be stronger
    But what doesn't kill me only makes life harder.
    Take a bite,
    The flesh,
    A Crimson delight.
    Midnight,
    My Mourning,
    An unimaginable pouring.
    This Lonely life
    Has taken from me.
    My Torment,
    My key,
    To eternal mental Darkness.
    Repressed,
    Depressed,
    Remembering you lies.
    How can you forget me
    When ill never forget you?
    October 23

    Hell On The Rise

    Haunted....
    Hated....
    Diseased within my head.
    Did you mean to do this?
    Well did you?
     
    I see blood in your eyes.
    Burrying me in your lies.
     
    Hoping...
    Wanting....
    Change never comes to those you wait.
    My hell is in my life.
    I promise I'll Try.
     
    I see hell on the rise.
    It has taken me by surprise.
    October 20

    Tearing Apart

    My dreams are dark.
    A spark
    Of light has shown.
    Take it all
    And fall
    Into the abyss.
     
    I'm trapped so lonely.
    Torture and agony
    Together at once.
    Tear me apart.
    In my heart
    Is where you still lay.
     
    Oh God help me
    To be free.
    I need so bad.
    Afraid of beneath the shadow.
    Shallow eyes, dark and hollow
    Staring back at me.
    October 10

    A Grey Day

    Screams...
    They killed...
    My dreams.
    How could you
    steal my life?
     
    This day....
    So dark...
    So grey.
    How could this
    Be my end?
     
    I'm stuck in this place.
    Never gonna win this race.
    No love to go around.
    Why does life always hold bounds?
     
    The things...
    We break....
    Shall never be the same.
    The dawn...
    Has broke...
    Never again.
     
    Our hearts are stone
    And swallow
    Everything.
    Oh God no!!!
    September 21

    Killing for Love

    Pure as the night.
    Remembering all that you've done.
    Hauntings in the world have just begun.
    Devoting your time to sins and crime.
    You'll never kill me with your endless lies.
     
    The Black is running down my face.
    I feel this unforgiving hunger
    To make them all pay.
     
    Rapping at your door.
    The sound of murder in the air.
    I killed them all for love of you.
    Settling my restless soul.
    So I can rest my head.
     
    I return to the place
    Where I once lay.
    I'm resting in peace at last.
    September 08

    Deny Everything

    I dare to believe in the life after this.
    Slowly walking away
    From what's been handed to me.
    Building up the strength to breathe again.
    Another moment will not awaken me.
    I deny everything...
     
    Darkness is raging on.
    Release your life
    And believe your lies.
    Stripped of my imprisoned mind.
    I need you to get through today.
    But I deny everything...
     
    Fear in shadows.
    Reap your loves of lives they've lost.
    Crucify their thoughts and dreams.
    Hollow in days to come.
    Believe in the conflicting meaning of life.
    And deny everything...
    September 02

    Rag Doll

    Sick of the same old thing...
    Beating the laughter out of me...
    I am your own child...
    How can you do this?
     
    Do you know what you're doing to me?
    What more do you ask of me?
    Why are you taking my heart away?
    I don't even know you.
     
    WHY!?!?
    Is this something you need to do?
    I'm not a rag doll to throw around.
    I'm a helpless child hiding from you.
     
    You're just running from what you really are!
    You're just a heartless coward!
    August 28

    Him

    Hello to all who read this. I realize that I haven't been adding poetry as often as I use to and I appologise for that but you know with school and everything its kinda hard to have time for anything else. While thinking I came up with poems having to do with horrible things that can happen to kids. None of things have happened to me so I can't fully describe how bad these things are, I can only try to imagine what these things can do to someone. This first one is about rape. I do not mean to offend anyone by this, I am only trying to show people how much bad there is in this world but no matter how much bad there is here, there will always be more good.
     
    [Verse]
    Here I sit all alone.
    Torn away from home.
    He wanted to be my friend.
    He asked me to give him my hand.
     
    [Chorus]
    Hush little baby don't you cry
    Or your mommy's gonna die.
    Do this for me
    And I shall set you free.
     
    [Verse]
    He made me lie.
    All I want is just to die.
    He stole everything from me.
    Why couldn't he just let me be?
     
    [Chorus]
    Hush little baby don't you cry
    Or your daddy's gonna die.
    Do this for me
    And I shall set you free.
     
    [Bridge]
    He stole my life.
    Tore me open with a knife.
    Leave me all alone.
    Just look at what he's done
     
    [Chorus]
    Hush little baby don't you cry
    Or your mommy's gonna die.
    Do this for me
    And I shall set you free.
    August 26

    So Far Away

    I look for you in my dreams.
    I find you in every thought in my mind.
    Closing my eyes and feel your every breath.
    Open my eyes to find you gone again.
     
    She is the very essence of my troubled mind.
    Healing my sickened body,
    Calming my restless soul.
    Why is she so far away?
     
    Anger raging through my veins.
    Purity in her lighted self.
    So many wars waiting to begin.
    How could a love be so destined?
    August 16

    Another

    This is just another decision.
    To live and to love
    And to die loving something you'll never have.
    Messages on the walls
    Have crumbled to dust.
     
    Sweet redemption is a star so far away.
    Guarding yourself from all around.
    The devil is laughing.
    You sever your love from the other
    While the love of another builds alone.
     
    Another truth,
    Just another leap of faith
    into arms of the unknown.
    Darkness is falling,
    Can you feel the calling of the grave?
     
    You won't be remember for all of your pain.
    Give up now!
    You're just another drop of sand.
    August 09

    The Tale of Life

    An endless wonderland life.
    A night bird crying in the sky,
    Continuing its journey home.
    The lingering same old sun,
    Fading into the west.
    We are only dust in the wind,
    Blown across the sea.
    Mountains forever young.
    The final days of the earth
    Dying fast.
     
    The breath of the wind
    Whispers across the land.
    Wondering the mysteries of time
    Until history tolls a new day.
    Reach beyond your monotonous dreams.
    The summer burning,
    Autumn falling as the leaves.
    A winter's breeze chilling the air,
    And spring blooms a new life.
    Nature's soothing, sweet lullabies.
     
    Fading of loss into despair.
    Our endless suffering will all end,
    When all else ends as well.
    August 06

    Dark of Night

    Something errupts this night!
    Deep in the shadows
    I lie awake
    Smothered by darkness.
    I'm abandoned in my sorrow.
    No more sympathy for this careless boy.
    This is my compensation for my misconduct.
     
    I can't escape the black halo
    That lingers above.
    Oh this fragile solitude...
    That I can't escape
    Corrupted and disturbed
    In the flawless moonlight.
     
    You cut my life just like a knife,
    Now my wounds will always bleed.
    Condemned eternally, I am
    For my deluding and history.
    August 04

    Glory of Day

    Morning comes...
    Oh the blessed sunlight.
    My urge for the perfect day.
    Waisted arrogance on protection.
     
    Glory came with silver skies.
    I'm craving this deep and true.
    I'm merely the innocent boy
    Nothing can break my inner peace.
     
    I found comfort in my soul.
    Why do they give me such warnings?
    I have breathed through the surface of pitty
    And tonight I'll quietly go to sleep.
     
    Oh my days are so beloved.
    My glory of days is so unreal.